Promises

I know your good, but this don’t feel good right now, And I know you think of things I could never think about. It’s hard to count it all joy, distracted by the noise, just trying to make sense of all your promises. Sometimes I gotta stop, remember that you’re God and I am not! So, Thy will be done. I know you see me, I know you hear me, Lord. Your plans are for me, goodness you have in store. -Hilary Scott, Thy Will.

Those words hit me like a ton of bricks during service yesterday! I have been struggling with fear and doubt because of failing a Math test. As a child I was diagnosed with a slight learning disability in math and let me tell you, Satan reminds me of it whenever Math comes up. I know that God is calling me to teach and these tests I have to pass to obtain my degree, one of which I have one more chance to pass before June and it affects my degree plan.  So yeah, a lot of stress and pressure.

But yesterday I found comfort in these words and  today God finally broke through the noise. The first thing I do when I get in my car is turn on the radio. Well this morning was no different except this song came on first via the radio and it took me back to yesterday.  The word promises stuck out so strong. Satan reminded me of my LD again but I was able to remind Him of God’s promises to me: I am a child of THE KING! He knows everything about me, down to every hair on my head! He has good plans for me to prosper and (I saved the best for last) I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO GIVES ME STRENGTH!!

So Satan, you can go back to where you belong because Gods promises to me are stronger than all of your lies!

Defeated

Yep, that’s the word for today. Today I took the 2nd attempt at a basic skills math test and failed.  Math and I are not friends, never have been. I was labeled, as a child, with a slight learning disability in math. I don’t know if I took that and ran with it but I never went past Algebra in High school. And then because I felt so inadequate I never went on for SAT’s or college. That was until 2007. I have been working on trying to obtain my degrees for almost 10 years now! I know God’s plan is for me to work with children and I love to teach so yes I feel as though God’s plan for me is to be a teacher. I don’t doubt it at all because I know what He has brought me through this far. However, it’s times and events like this that just really knock me down. And boy does the enemy love to jump on me when me when I am down! I can’t wait to be back in the classroom leading the Little’s and even though technically I am about 1 year away from graduation  these tests feel like major mountains that I can’t scale.

Hello again, its me.

So, after a major long hiatus, yep….its been 4 years, I am back! Honestly, I forgot about the blog. I know, sad right! Well here’s to hoping I can make this useful. I am going to use this blog partly as my learning journal and reflections. See, I have 1 year left of classes before I graduate with my Bachelor’s in Elementary Education. WooHoo! It’s been a long road, I am so ready 🙂 I have 6 content classes left, including elementary math, science, social studies, literature, phys ed and health, and visual and performing arts. I want to do this right and take in all I can so that is why I ma starting a reflections journal. I am so ready to be back in the classroom!

B+- Daily writing prompt for 2-23-13

Write about what you did last weekend as though you’re a music critic reviewing a new album.—The title of the new release was A DAY WITH NANA. It was special. It was full of laughter, fun, and love. It started out slow and melodic as I drove my grandson 45 minutes for a haircut. YES, I said 45 minute drive for a haircut, but when you know something is just down right that good you go with it. There was a nice steady beat through the haircut. The tempo increased a little through lunch. But then the sick, heavy bass came in with a rocking, thunderous beat as we had to shop for groceries. At times the drum beats were so loud I thought I was going to have to quit before finished, but it finally mellowed enough and then the peaceful,  serene tempo came back through the drive as the drummer slept through the drive home. 

 

Overall I would give this cut an A, because after all, how could a day with Nana get anything lower.

Plot of Earth

Today’s daily post prompt is : You’re given a plot of land and have the financial resources to do what you please. What’s the plan?- This is a total no brainer!! I would build myself a fully equipped and completely loaded Photography Studio. I love taking and making pictures and would love to be able to increase my clientele and photographing season by having my own professional studio. To be able to say that I am a full time photographer with my own studio is an absolute dream, one that I hope to be fulfilled in the near-distant future. 

 

Nightmares- Post topic for 2-19-13

When I was a child there were a few dreams that I would have quite regularly. One was about a building, like a mall, and being in a place that I did not how to get of. Another one was being in a lane, behind my great grandmothers-Alma Bell, who lived in Greenwood. The lane was between her fence in the backyard and the yard across from it. I would be ion this lane and was able to raise my arms like superman and fly into the sky. The dream, or shall I say nightmare, that haunted and taunted me the most however  was one where I was in a multistory building, like a highrise. I was running, hiding, crouching- all to get away from what was looking in the windows for me. And it seemed like whichever window I went to, he was there. Who was there? Ready for this…. A Godzilla like creature. Don’t ask me, I guess our minds play really bad tricks on us. I would sure like to look up the meanings to the dreams, one day…maybe- maybe not!